Memories

u miss her... and i miss you
Y cant life be more straight forward...

i like to keep all my past relationship as memories. Weather it was sweet or bitter they are wat made me who i am :)

your past is but memories...or are they your baggage? Depends how u want to define it. If you just cant let go your past love...den it becomes a baggage. Something U carry wif you when u enter into another relationship. And that wouldn be fair for u nor the other person

do u wan to live in de past or de present is still your choice. No one can tell you to stop. I cant tell you wat to do ...Because i know U wont listen anyway.

...(but) ur favourite line
but... when you feel like opening up the door to your heart... As and when you do...u can be rest assured i will not break it. I will only love it

from ONE to TEN - Just Follow Your Heart

ONE
People think they know you. Or they pretend they know you. but actually who does? Common...i dun even know myself very well. Do you?
we always wear a mask on our face. In work place we are different person. Wif frens we are more easy and sometimes crazy. Wif the one we admire/love we tend to be some1 we are not...trying to be the person we think he/she likes. Why complicate things....Just be who you are number ONE.

TWO
I like it when things come unexpectedly and sweeps my feet away. I like dat kind of feeling. If only we could just live like that — with no expectations in mind. That way we would be much happier, with more memorable moments that would last us a lifetime.
But alas we humans like to think too much... Sometimes just too much. Cant we just let our natural instinct take charge once in a while... and let de unexpected sweep our feet away.


Follow your heart for your heart will kno the one that's meant for you;
So as you follow your heart I pray that it will lead U to me

THREE
I believe we met not by chance but by God's grace.
I think a guy becomes friends with a girl and vice versa because they're both attracted to each other when they first met. If they weren't attracted to each other, they would never have given each other a second look.

Chance or Faith... i choose THREE...the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit...FAITH.LOVE.HOPE

FOUR
Faith Love Hope...the fourth is to WAIT
In the end, it's best to wait for the one we love rather than settle for what's available.
I'll be waiting for you

FIVE

There'll always be that first love. The one you cried and cried for days and nights. The one who'll still have a special little place inside your heart. Yes, is not wrong to keep dat beautiful memorry. eniway eveyone has ONE...and only ONE. Not FIVE :p
5 other boys will come into your life break it! But dats fine coz...dat way it means your heart is now stronger, It takes a lot of hurdles just to allow me to trust someone and for some reason, I didn’t have to jump through hoops just to allow my heart to say “it’s okay” just to open up to you.
And then suddenly, you just leave. You cared about me and I trusted you.

SIX

Sometimes, I think that we waste our words, we waste our moments and we don’t take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

You have no idea how much I want to send you a simple text message, or just call you to see how you’ve been and what’s new in your life. Late at night, I find myself typing the words into my phone, but i've got too much pride in me to send it. (so why cant U just make de call?) My SIX senses tell me you've moved on with your life, you've found some1 sweeter den me???...while I’m still sitting here going through the exact same motions.

I always struggle to explain the way I feel. I don’t open up to anyone and I keep my heart locked away. But somehow, you made it leap out of my chest. Somehow, you get me to tell you my deepest, darkest secrets. And somehow, I might have fallen for you.

SEVEN
Most girls say that they want a fairy tale. But that’s not what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me and make me laugh even if they’re stupid. Someone who will do BJJ with me and not let me win because I’m a girl. Yeah, watching de sunset together would be nice, dancing and singing would be aww romantic or visit de SEVEN wonders.... but doing BodyCombat, BodyPump, BJJ sessions with you seems so much better.

EIGHT

I want to be the girlfriend. Not the friend. Not the confidant. Not the other woman. Not the friend with benefits. And certainly not the second choice. I want to be the one who’s loved, held, and who gets the phone calls at night and the cute surprises, the kisses on the forehead and the “I miss you’s.” I want it all.

NINE

I’ll never understand why I wasn’t given what I deserved when it came to guys. Or why he never stuck around. I’ll never understand why people judge people based on their appearances. I’ll never understand why you can feel so close to a person and be a million miles apart. I’ll never understand how I can miss a person this much. I’ll never understand why my family can’t be perfect. I’ll never understand why I keep going back time after time thinking of you. I’ll never understand why my life can’t be simple. I’ll never understand why I love you. (Opps...did i say I Love You) I'll never understand so dun ask me how or why? Just understand me

TEN

I don’t know how my story is goin to end, but I know if what you felt was love- true love- then fill in the pages of this story book

My Pride

“Pride costs more than hunger, thirst and cold.”

I have my pride. I have come to a point where it has reached my limit. Dats so much of me dat i can give. No more Raine... you've got your pride so wear it high and proud.

God is great. God gives you what you need, not what you want and sometimes, more than you ever dreamed of. So have faith!

SICK

feverish...but still keeping myself awake to learn up choreo for tmro class at 7am.

jz back frm Penang...was there for the PBIM and it was awesome! Was running the half marathon ( 21km) my first attempt. and it was raining heavy. God saw me thru and i had a very good timing 2 hrs 15min approx.

Guess that sums up y i am am having fever and flu now eh :) Plus all de nice food!!! how can i resist!!!

i am so fever dat i cant write or think straight...de room is like spinning round!!!

i am SICK and i wish u were here

SiCK

S - sore throat
I - imune system low
C - caughing
K - Krappy feeling

S.I.C.K.......

Life is too short

This post is a lil out dated.

I read a post on FB that a young energetic girl age 32 (a member of Fitness First) pass away that morning. 11 November 2010
When i read the post i was dumbfounded. it was disbelieve because she was a healthy happy young girl. Yes she was young. Her death was unexpected!!! Her death was a surprise!! Her death was so sad...to her family members and also her friend.

As i read thru her FB page...i just couldn keep my tears... i didn know her but i felt for her loved ones!

Please guys...live your life to the fullest wif no regrets!! If forever doesnt come...lets all do it now or never.
Wif dat said...i geared up some courage and called the one person i missed so dearly... dat nite...i jz wanted dat person to know that he was missed! that was about it. Nothing more nothing less... and i did! wasnt expecting anything in return tho...and if it did i wouldn know how to react to it anyway.

It's just so ironic...love is playing a game on me or what?
I have a very strong feeling for this person, and the feeling was mutual. It was mutual until he said, he was not ready for any relationship for de moment. All this was happening so fast i didn get to think! but as i sat down and think...maybe he was right. It was all happening too fast. As for me...i would like to believe that i am ready...but in actual fact...de doors to my heart are still shut... I hope you will find dat key to open up de door..or better still create another door (a new door) SMILE!!!

IRONIC....
Nevertheless...today i am still missing him.

NOT TOO GOOD

i dun feel good!!
it's Holiday (deepavali) dis wkend.. but m not feeling good

got classes dis wkend... not complaining bout de classes tho...
(jz gotta earn those bucks!!)
so so..much commitment on my shoulder. It jz gets heavier and heavier. Some1 help lighten it can ka?

M gonna cry and scream my lungs out tonite in class... pump those irons..hope all will be released!! well at lease for dat moment!! better den nothing.